One Way Ticket To *Unknown* Please.

The uncertain end-of-the-road stage in every soon to be graduate life.

Have you ever heard to term:

“Don’t lose the moon, whilst counting the stars?”.

I think it’s simple expression describes so much and can be reflected onto anyone’s situation in life. It’s an example of taking the world around us for granted and loosing what’s most important to us.

So, I’m having one of my ‘lost’ weeks again. During which I start to pluck out and analyse everything in my life. What career path I’ve chosen, where i should go after uni, should i change job, should i move into a box. Just standard really. I’m sure I’m not alone in this assessing the things that centre around our life’s thing. Not that I have anything to complain about as i have a lovely life with some wonderful people to surround it. However, the ‘assessing’ part is really just aimed at myself. I start to question every little detail. Am i too this or am i too that? Am i a bitch or am i nice? Am i spoilt or generous? The list is endless.

However, they aren’t all just thoughts that come into my head. Some are planted there from things I’ve read too much into about myself from others.

The problem is, all of this clutter i have in my head just leads to an outburst on the people around me. It’s just a one big circle.

So how do i reassolve it? I’m not sure and there’s no definitive answer.

But (and I’m going to sound like millions of people that write this stuff) ‘self love is important’.

I need to start investing in myself a lot more, easier said then done.

Time to start, immediately. (Or after this episode of black mirror, of course.)

E. x